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Abscission · 1 July 05

Abscission is something I consider a strength. I think.

I don’t often do it, though sometimes I wish I could be more ruthless. I flirt with the idea of being harsh, of just up and saying – no, in the long run staying with this is going to hurt me more, I am going to cut it off now.

I can’t think of a single time I have been that direct.

However, when an awareness of that truth grows on me, I do start moving. I shift things a little, as much unconsciously as consciously. Subtle changes in attitude, response, behaviour – the little things.

I am not sure if this is a good way to do it. I sometimes think that the ending is sourer – that it is less permissive of looking back at the good moments, or even remembering that they were there.

Is that better than an almost certain guarantee of more hurt? I wish I knew.

  1. I’m not certain that “cutting things off” always solves the problem. Sometimes the cuttings can root and grow, sometimes the branch you take off was the one which would have brought forth the sweetest fruit.

    Try not to fear the possible pain of perceived failure and go for Gold! At least you will know you tried. This is especially true whilst no others depend on you – family, kids etc.

    I reckon your mum is a wise lady and can see her daughters talents better then the daughter maybe…?
    — HiPhi    Jul 4, 13:31    #
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