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Life beyond the New Years resolution... · 3 January 05
Somehow, in place of New Year’s resolutions, I have been led to reflect on where my life has been and where it is taking me now. For the first time in quite a while, I am beginning to feel a desire to take control of my life and direct it a bit more, rather than just going with the flow. Taking life ‘as it comes’ works most of the time, mainly because it has been unfolding and developing in ways that have kept me interested and motivated. But now I feel that I have become a bit side-tracked, possibly gone a bit too far down an avenue that I don’t have so much confidence in.
I think this has a lot to do with the fact that this is the year in which I will turn 30. I have never consciously thought about this, but in contemplating it now I have discovered that I had expectations about where I would be in life by this time. Mainly these are just stereotypes that I unconsciously accepted or took for granted. So now I am beginning to assess whether they are really what I wanted, and if so, whether I can continue to passively wait for them to happen, or whether some active decisions on my part are required.
Not least among these is the desire for a lifestyle that is somewhat more settled. Since leaving home over ten years ago, the longest I have lived in one city is four years. The last couple of times, the effort of finding new friends and establishing a new life has strained me just a little, indeed seemed just a small amount too conscious. I begin to feel that I don’t want to keep doing this. Yet, already, new opportunities are catching my eye, in yet another new location. For the first time, I am beginning to assess where I finally want to end up. To question whether I will have to pick a place – put a stake in the sand – and say “here I stay!” Perhaps I can only find the best job by uprooting, but just maybe that is no longer the best thing for me. Will I have to decide that staying in a place and within a stable community is more important than having the best job I can find? I always assumed that these things would unfold naturally…
I’m going to stop now, as my thoughts are entangling themselves again, but this is a start… (of course maybe I’ll look at this in a couple of days and say “what was I on”!
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